Dear Princess(AKA Kumog),

About a year and a half ago, I was very mentally unstable with this game. Everything people said to me or about me threw me into a rampage. I took it for years and then one day I finally snapped and turned the whole forums around.

I posted things that should have never been posted that revealed some of the most secret things about people. To those people, I really am sorry and I know you can't forget it, but I just hope you can forgive me for what I did. Not only did I hurt those people in question, I lost trust in the friends that sent me those things in the first place.

I bypassed your bans many times with someone's help and did even more hurtful things to people just because I was sick and tired of being picked on at the time. But you never really did anything to me Kumog so what I did to you was unjustified.

Since that day I have been permanently banned and I think that was a good thing for me. Now that I can post again I just wanted to say my apology to these people: Darlute, Marcus, Kumog, and Shane, as individuals. I also want to apologize to anyone else who was offended about what I did.

Sincerely,

Princess Deylin

PS: I was told to write this letter in this format by Twilight. I hope it is acceptable.

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Princess Yi?



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apparently.

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I guess it does sort of look like a dress in the Ionia skin.

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An actual apology? What?

I'll accept for now, though I'll just say this. The instant you feel even slightly similar to how damn crazy you were over the game's drama before, just leave for a while instead of going off the deep end. A video game is not worth going insane over.

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Yes Princess.

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I used to get all wrapped up in FFO drama as well. I'd take everything hella seriously, and though that fed a little bit into the gameplay aspect of it, it still was me just adding drama. I did not understand this fact until years later - when I took my first steps into another game I will not directly name, but refer to as "HELL." Korin was there, he knows.

In HELL, you are in a lawless land where you have precariously trained your character. It is a post apocalyptic setting where you are the only one you can trust. Everywhere you turn, everything you do, some other player will pop out and make you rage somehow.

When I first joined, I was immediately grabbed and hurled into a man sized furnace repeatedly, roughly three times. I hadn't even finished character creation, and therefore, ICly had the strength of a Ten Year Old.

Immediately after becoming 13 and 'growing up' (finishing character creation) I was riddled with bullets from hoodlums and tossed once more into the furnace after being urinated on.

I spent much time honing my skills and gaining medical expertise, and I went out on extreme missions to revive people. After I had saved many an ass, I had slowly began to develop reknown. I even learned how to pilot, until the vehicle blew up and showered in small chunks several hundred feet to the city below because I got shot down by flak cannons.

I cloned and went into my apartment, and huddled in the corner. Thinking I should wash off some of the blood, vomit, and alcohol which drenched my form, I step into the shower and turn it on only to realize some prankster had broken into my apartment and thrown a plugged in electronic scale in the tub. I was then shocked to death as the robbers emerged from my closet, looting my place and throwing me down my own garbage chute.

That game, was indeed, hell.

But what that game taught me was, after I had stopped caring about the drama, stopped caring about the loss, and gotten pushed to a point where even the most serious of griefing does not bother me if done to me, I suddenly began to have insane amounts of fun. I piloted a Cessna Skywagon as high as possible, flicked on a digital video cam and jumped from the plane. In mid air I disrobed and slapped on a scuba suit and parachute. I pulled the cord and swapped the pack for a scuba tank just before I hit water, avoiding lungs full of air. I then proceeded to swim around and box mutant sharks because Sniper_Joe is epic ****.

-cough- ANYWAY!

TLDR; The moral of my story was, after I had realized that my problems with people are trivial compared to what could be going on, I got much more chill and suddenly life in FFO is much better.

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Nanie...


I love you lol.

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Lol. xD

The best part is I am not joking, all this stuff happened in another game. It's the same game you can just fly above town and hurl cans of soda, and while they calculate their drop distance down they target tiles randomly and may literally take people down.

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I never really had a problem with you, mostly the weird guys that got e-crushes on you since you were the only girl in FFO and they started making you the most powerful character in the game even if you barely actually played or earned anything yourself

And the fact you sat there like some JRPG queen on a throne with a little handheld fan going "fu fu fu........!!" and let it happen

tho I suppose even that is a lot less bad than a lot of the other players/groups in positions of high power every time I've looked at ffo over the last few years!!

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Elias wrote:

I never really had a problem with you, mostly the weird guys that got e-crushes on you since you were the only girl in FFO and they started making you the most powerful character in the game even if you barely actually played or earned anything yourself

And the fact you sat there like some JRPG queen on a throne with a little handheld fan going "fu fu fu........!!" and let it happen

tho I suppose even that is a lot less bad than a lot of the other players/groups in positions of high power every time I've looked at ffo over the last few years!!

The first part of this is just dumb, I learned everything by myself by studying FFO basically and asking questions. I was always by myself and PKd everyone with like one other person with me at most. Of which the two I can name, Nabutso and Darlute. I made myself powerful, no one spoon fed me like they did Kikuri, Sasha, and Kati.

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Mostly referring to when smith and a bunch of other guys living in gsh (but mainly smith) did everything for you, but also --

I didn't even say you didn't have your own skill in FFO or that you never grinded for yourself or that you didn't know how to play the game etc. I was pointing out that like it or not you did have guys spoonfeeding you in various ways even if you didn't prefer it that way, and that was annoying -- not so much YOU as the guys doing it, as i was trying to point out.

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